kevin boddy

I'm sitting right now in my hotel room in Hawaii listening to Anberlin at the moment. Life is pretty amazing right now. Let's recap everything that I've been through up to this point:

( This is really long and boring, so good luck if you actually plan on reading it. )

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Anberlin - Disappear

Life is absolutely incredible right now. I feel so good about it. I am finding out new things about myself every single day. I am finding out new things about the people around me every day. I am learning how to focus on what I truly want out of life, something that I have lacked in the past. This isn't to say that I know exactly what I want out of life at this very moment; there is still so much to learn about myself and about my surroundings in general. But I actually am starting to feel like I know where my priorities lie with regards to life in general. I'm not sure if I have ever been this happy in my life. But it is a great feeling. Such a great feeling.

I'm at the Chicago airport right now, coming home from my adventure to Seattle. And wow, this weekend was just so good. It was such a relaxing and positive experience that I am extremely glad that I booked this flight. It is so out of the ordinary for me to do something like this, so I am very pleased with the outcomes of the matter. I had high expectations for this trip, and those expectations were blown out of the water. I did not think I would have as great of a time as I did there. The weekend just flew by so quickly as well. Between going to Amber's birthday party, going to the U District Fair, watching movies, and even just spending simple quality time together, time just evaporated, so it seemed. But I loved every single minute of it, and as a result, I am a very happy and gracious man. Thank you so much, Amber. I cannot stress that enough. I'm looking forward to the near future as much as I ever have been.

And for good reason, here's what my schedule is looking like for the next month or so:

May 22nd-24th: Kentucky
May 29th-31st: Seattle
June 1st-7th: Hawaii
June 8th: Two finals
June 13th-14th: MME/FR tournaments

I am going to be absolutely blasted with school work in between each of these time periods. But I am perfectly fine with that. This is as busy as I have ever been in my life. Added to the fact that time is going way too quickly, I sure hope I can keep up with everything. But this will all be worth it in the end.

Current Location: Chicago airport
Current Mood: so happy
Current Music: Avenged Sevenfold - Afterlife

Life could not be any better right now.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: birds chirping cause it's 6:17 AM

I'm so excited for this weekend. For a multitude of reasons. But only one really matters.

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Emery - Party Song

The Good

- I'm going to KY this weekend to celebrate Ben's 21st birthday with Pirin and Ryan. That should be a really good time. I'm pretty excited to get out of here and just relax for the weekend, haha. Going to be nice.

- GOMX is coming up next week! It's pretty absurd how many people are coming to this tournament. It feels like this tournament was just scheduled like two weeks ago and not coming up until like summer, and before I knew it, I'm going to be seeing a ton of people as soon as next Thursday. It's pretty exciting. Can't wait to see everyone!

- Classes have been good so far. I am in CS&E 200 (boring), Bio 102 (a lot of work, but it's pretty interesting), and Music 288 (otherwise known as the History of Hip-Hop/R&B, haha). The Hip-Hop class is pretty alright, I guess. Our professor is pretty enthusiastic about teaching the class, as I believe he said he was a Jazz musician of some sort before he started teaching. Pretty interesting, I suppose. This quarter feels like I have to do a lot more work than I have the other quarters, though. Bio 102 is pretty demanding in that there's always some paper I have to be writing or article I have to be reading. It's rewarding, though. They don't make you read stupid articles or anything, just New York Times articles that are relevant to everyday life. It's 100 times better than Bio 101, that's for sure. So I like my classes this quarter.

The Bad

- The weather recently has sucked for no reason. Good thing it is getting warmer because it was snowing before, haha. And it was like 20 degrees, too. Obnoxious.

- I feel like I'm missing something in my life. I'm not entirely sure what it is, but I feel empty with some regards to life. I don't really understand it at all because, since I don't know what it is, I can't solve it. It's not the first time I've felt like this, so it's not really unexpected, but it's just different. I think a main reason for this is that I don't feel like I have any focused goals at all in life. I just live life daily, do what I want to do, don't really think about anything with regards to the future. It's already Spring quarter, and it feels like I haven't been doing anything here. Grades have been fine, life is great, nothing is wrong. It just seems like I'm not going anywhere. Not really advancing myself. I feel like I am not living up to my potential, at the moment. I need like a job or something cause I just feel like I'm not doing anything, even if I really am by going to college. I would love to start playing online poker seriously, but devoting time to that and whatnot is so demanding.

Current Mood: out there
Current Music: Anberlin - Dismantle Repair

The Good

- I went to the Morehead DDR tournament in KY this weekend. We (being Mel, Brian, Ryan, and I) drove down on Friday at about four in the afternoon. It was about a three and a half hour drive or so, so that was kind of annoying, lol. Not too bad, though. We got to the arcade, and the place is really small. And hot. But whatever, they had an upgrade ITG2 machine and a DDR Extreme machine. The upgrade was surprisingly really good for being an upgrade. I was very pleased with it. We went to BW3 afterward to eat with everyone (like 10 people or so). That was a pretty good time. A random guy came up to me and said that I dropped my phone on the ground, which was extremely nice of him because I'm pretty sure I would've forgotten it there. We went back to Ben and Zach's place and played a ton of games of beer pong, AKA the main attraction of the weekend, haha. I won a ton of games on Friday night, haha. What can I say, I'm a beer pong champion as well. =P

The tournament started on Saturday like three hours late, but whatever, ITG2 was on so I just played that while we waited for the DDR tournament to start. My legs felt like absolute crap the whole day, and I was extremely tired from getting like less than three hours of sleep. So I was in a pretty much not-caring mood the whole day, haha. I ended up getting 5th in DDR due to a combination of my lack of care, getting a little unlucky, and me sucking at Bag, rofl. So whatever, I wasn't too worried about that. Good job to the top three (Ben, Brian, and Charles). You all were playing pretty well and deserved it. After playing Skyline multiple times throughout the day (along with my edit), as well as Who Let the Dogs Out, we went back to Ben's to . . . hmm what did we do . . . oh yeah, played more beer pong, of course. Except this time I was doing so shitty, haha. Sorry teammates! Whatever, it was still a ridiculously fun night.

This weekend was the most fun I've had in a long time. I laughed more than I have in a long fucking time. It was very relaxing and just a great time in general. Thanks to Ben and Zach for housing us and whatnot. It was awesome. =)

The Bad

- The weather around here? I don't know, I don't really have anything more to say. Just wanted to tell about my weekend.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Sanxion7 - EternuS

The Good

- I started running today! I'm gonna see how long this actually lasts, but it was really nice to start that up. I also started doing push-ups/sit-ups in addition to running. I want to be in good shape for some reason, haha. Hopefully I can keep this up for a good amount of time. That would be nice.

- I am going to a DDR tournament this weekend in Kentucky. It should be a good time hanging out with a lot of cool people/people I haven't met yet. Partying and whatnot is gonna be a blast. I'm looking forward to it.

- I figured out why I hold video game controllers so weirdly. For those of you that don't know, I hold the left side of it "normally" for the most part, but for the right side of controllers, I don't really grab under the controller. Instead, I use like the tips of my fingers to hit the buttons and rest the controller on my lap. I guess it's kinda hard if you don't have a picture. It looks similar to this, I guess (for Super Smash Bros., at least). http://dpad.gotfrag.com/files/upload/plazmaz_claw101_3.jpg Well anyway, I figured out that I hold the controllers so weirdly because of MegamanX when you get the dash shoes from Chill Penguin's level. I realized that I had to have a finger on the A button at all times while still doing whatever I was doing, so the way I held it was very weird. That was my sudden insight of the day.

Now that's a GFS right there. =P

The Bad

- Class in like 10 minutes, booo. We should have off for President's Day.

Current Location: We Are Scientists - Nobody Move, Nobody Get Hurt
Current Mood: good

The Good

- I've been drinking a ton of water at night lately, and it is awesome. I'm so glad that I'm not drinking pop at night because it's not even enjoyable at night. It's much more enjoyable in the day. This is cutting my pop intake by at least 1/2 of what it was, so that is great news. I've been flossing every night and using mouthwash as well. Here's to no more cavities!

- The weather is all of a sudden great in Ohio, being in the high 40s/low 50s. Tomorrow is supposed to be in the high 50s, so that should be pretty sick. Good weather means I can start biking to class and everywhere else I go, and biking is a ton of fun. Good news!

- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R7yfISlGLNU

This is a link to the Lonely Island's new song, "I'm on a Boat." This is like 100x better than Jizz In My Pants, so I suggest you watch this. I guarantee you will enjoy it. It's very funny. T-Pain is just unreal in this. So good.

- I've been listening to 90s music lately, lol. I decided that I needed to get a larger playlist of songs since I haven't really had any new music recently, so I went with the plan of getting older music that I used to listen to all the time. Such hits include Backstreet Boys, N'Sync, Britney Spears, Will Smith, and Ace of Base (Cruel Summer? Is there a better song in existence?), to name a few. It's been enjoyable to listen to these songs, but I'm sure I'll grow tired of it in like two weeks, haha. I also downloaded the We Are Scientists album from 2006, since I heard a song on Youtube that I really liked by them, so I decided to get it. It's pretty good for the most part. It reminds me a lot of The Strokes. It's new to me, so I like it.

- Amber Harner sent me a valentine in the mail! I was very happy to receive this, as I never really get mail. It was quite a pleasant surprise. What a wonderful person. =)

The Bad

- Ehh, not too much is bad, just have a Biology midterm tomorrow that I've been studying for (not well) for the past three hours and still think I'm gonna do shitty on, but whatever, don't really care, haha. I also have a 6 page paper that I have to write tomorrow. Procrastination is not paying off now. =P

Current Mood: content
Current Music: We Are Scientists - The Great Escape

The Good

- Since Sunday, I've been flossing my teeth every night. I'm trying to become a lot more healthy because I think that would be a good time. I was thinking about just buying water instead of pop, but that's probably unlikely. I am going to start doing some exercise, too, like running on treadmills, doing push-ups/sit-ups, playing more basketball, etc. It seems like a good idea, and I would like to become more healthy overall, so we'll see how this goes. I mean, knowing how unfocused I am, this plan will probably fall out within a week, but whatever. I'm going to try hard to stick to it.

- I beat Super Mario RPG like two days ago. This is pretty important news because I cannot finish video games, and I just ran through this game in like three days. It was a good time. Although that game is retardedly easy, though.

- Going to play ITG tonight! Pretty excited about that.

The Bad

- In biology lecture right now. Yawn.

- I have two papers due next week along with a midterm. Lame! Oh well, once I am done with those then I can start slacking off again for the next four weeks. =P

- School, in general, is getting pretty boring. Granted, I'm in really basic and shitty classes right now, but it's still pretty dull. I think I want to get a job or something around here. That would be a good idea.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: boring bio lecture dude

The Good

- I played in a Magic tournament yesterday. They are called PTQs, or Pro Tour Qualifiers. There are normally about like 125 or so people at these, and the winner of these tournaments are invited to the Pro Tour, which is basically just another huge tournament with big cash prizes at sweet places. This season is Pro Tour Honolulu. There were 230 people there, so it was much larger than most of them. Well, long story short, I won the PTQ, haha. So I get a free flight to Honolulu in early June. It's going to be a really awesome time. There are a bunch of people that I know (some from OSU, others from random tournaments) that are going, so yeah, I am pretty excited for that.

- I have been playing a lot of ITG lately, which has been really fun. The machine at Fort Rapids got hacked, and the new theme was put on there. The pads were also fixed, for the most part. So it's very nice to play there now. I've also been playing a decent amount of basketball lately, so my exercise schedule has been pretty solid for the most part. It's nice.

Yeah, I don't really have too much to say other than the PTQ, haha. I've been enjoying life a ton lately. Lots of Rock Band, drinking, hanging out with friends, easy school work, seeing a ton people from out of town, etc. I am very pleased. =)

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Foo Fighters - Everlong

The Good

- I went out to eat today for my birthday (on Wednesday) with my parents, my brother Chris, and his boyfriend Robert. We went to Mongolian BBQ, as usual for my birthday, haha. It was very good, of course. Although it sucks that they have the crappy, fat noodles as opposed to the sweet, thin noodles that they have in the Columbus one. But I can't complain. Free lunch and it was delicious, haha.

- http://www.mediafire.com/?npzzmhzcdyg

I highly recommend that you give this CD a listen. It is by the Super Mash Bros. (yeah, I hate that name too) It is very similar in nature to the Girl Talk CDs, except they use a lot more recent music, which I like a lot. The CD is only about 28 minutes long, which is the only bad thing about this CD. I've been listening to this CD nonstop. I've probably heard it about 30 times or so, haha. It's sweet. Check it out. Oh yeah, also don't listen to the first track of this CD, as it's just like an intro thing that's really stupid.

The Bad

- I'm not good at ITG anymore after playing today for the first time in a while. =P

Current Mood: good
Current Music: Super Mash Bros.

The Good

- I went to a wedding reception yesterday for someone on my mom's side of the family. Don't exactly know how I'm related to them, but I am, haha. I ended up not knowing anyone outside of my immediate family/cousins, so that was kinda awkward. But I ended up conversing with a lot of them, which was actually very nice. I started to remember people I haven't seen in like 10 years or so. It was pretty cool. And, of course, my dad had to bring up the fact that I play DDR to literally like everyone at the reception, so I talked with a lot of people about that. They said they were amazed by it and were going to look me up on youtube, hahaha. Hopefully there aren't any inappropriate videos on there, or else that will be really weird. Whatever. =P

- I went to a DDR tourney today in Mentor. It was kind of a small tournament, although definitely bigger than I thought it would be, haha. There were about 20 or so people there, including some people that I haven't seen in a while, so it was nice to catch up with them. I ended up getting 2nd after a retardedly long match with Steve (Ranatalus), haha. Wasn't too disappointed with getting 2nd, though, since I wasn't even going to go in the first place since I felt sick as hell when I woke up today.

- After the DDR tourney, I went to see some people I haven't seen in a while at a Smash tournament, which, coincidentally, was in Mentor, so that was nice. I didn't enter because, although I felt I was the best player there, even after not playing for ever, it started at like 9 PM, there weren't too many people entered in the tournament, and there was a venue fee for absolutely no reason. So I would be paying $10 to maybe win $30. Sounds like good pot odds, right? I decided against it and put that money to good use: buying myself some Honey BBQ wings from a wing store right next to that place, haha. And they were delicious.

The Bad

- Like I mentioned before, I felt really sick when I woke up today. I had a pretty bad headache throughout the DDR tournament today, and I'm not really 100% right now, but I should be better by tomorrow. Hopefully.

- I've been drinking way too much pop lately, and I think the caffeine is starting to get to me. I think I really need to just cut down on drinking so much pop. It's so hard to do that at home, though, since my mom just stockpiles the fridge full of pop. Can't really resist just drinking it, haha. It's also bad for my teeth, as I have two cavities now from when I saw the dentist like a week ago. Maybe that will be my New Year's Resolution, to stop drinking so much pop. . . yeah right.

- I've been feeling kinda empty lately, and it's annoying, haha. I've also been having random thoughts that start to bother me a lot. Not weird, violent thoughts or anything, haha. Just picturing random things happening in my head that aren't happening/likely to happen, past events that keep reoccurring, etc. It's getting pretty annoying, but there's nothing I can do to change it, so whatever. And it's not like they are messing up my life or anything, so it's fine. Just nitpicking. =P

- I really didn't like Christmas this year, to be honest. It was very uneventful, and it doesn't really make me feel good about myself. Giving and receiving gifts is fine, but when my mom and dad just give me a lot of money, it's kinda frustrating, to be honest. I mean, I love money, but why do I deserve just getting a bunch of money from my parents on this day? I know I should be thankful for stuff like this and am probably sounding like a stuck up idiot, but it just doesn't feel like "Christmas" to me if that's what I'm getting. Does anyone else feel this way? Christmas used to be my favorite holiday because you just get a bunch of free shit and it's sweet. But, now that I actually look at it, it's kinda dumb. Doesn't seem like I earned any of the things I'm getting. And I really didn't put much thought in the gifts I got people this year. Bleh.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Paramore - Decode (not D-code, although I wish it were D-code)

The Good

- I went to a DDR tournament this weekend in Rhode Island. Dan (PQQP), Derek (Dr. D), and I drove there in Derek's car. Took about 13 hours to get there, which was pretty annoying. The weather was very bad when we were driving. Good thing we didn't get injured or anything in it because it was pretty severe. We stayed at a very nice hotel (the NYLO) that was about two minutes from the tournament site. It was only $75 for the night, and it was beautiful. We went to the tournament the next day (Saturday), and it was pretty stupid when we first got there. First of all, we got there at about 11:10 or so, when the tournament director said that he wanted everybody there by 11:00. The place was closed, so we had to wait outside until the tournament director showed up. He finally showed up around 11:40, so I got a pretty bad first impression of the day. We went inside and weren't allowed to play on the DDR machine when we got there. Meaning, everybody had to play their qualifier/matches completely cold. Obviously that gives me an edge, and I took the advantage by AAA'ing the qualifier, Afronova. Derek ended up at 2nd seed with 2 greats, meaning we were on opposite sides of the bracket, which was great news. So, like any other tournament, I get to play about two matches in an 8-hour timespan, so overall it was very boring. Then the end of the tournament was coming up, and Derek and I were in the finals of the winners bracket, which was a great feeling. One of us was basically guaranteed the $600 first place prize. I ended up winning the match, so he got knocked down to the losers bracket. He ended up playing Steve (ranatalus), another Ohioan. We agreed to a deal since we all knew each other, so it worked out nicely. It was really nice for Ohio to just take everybody's money at this tournament, haha. And, obviously, it was very nice for me to win $538. Well deserved and well needed money my way is always a good sign. =P

- Rocky Mount, the biggest tournament I'll ever go to, most likely, is in less than two weeks! I'm very excited for this trip. First off, the Rhode Island tournament I just went to gave me the fever to do really well in this tournament. As much as I think DDR is a crapshoot, I believe I have a very good chance after what happened this weekend. For the most part, I was on my game, AAA'ing about 75% of the songs I played. It really gives me the will to try to repeat how I did last Rocky Mount. ITG, on the other hand, is something I'm a little weary of. I haven't been practicing ITG too much lately, and yeah, practicing that game is pretty key to doing well, heh. I still expect to do well, as always, and to not disappoint like I did last Rocky Mount, haha. I feel I can do much better than what I did then. Second of all, we (Pirin, Ryan, and I) are going to be driving on my birthday. So we will arrive in Rocky Mount on my birthday, and from what I hear, it'll probably be the most exciting birthday ever, haha. Pretty much just can't wait for it.

The Bad

- I have not gone Christmas shopping yet, of course, so I will probably be doing that tomorrow. Not really looking forward to it since I have no idea what I'm going to buy.

- It is soooooo cold in Cleveland, good god. With the wind chill, it's probably about -15 to -20 degrees here. It's very annoying, to say the least, haha.


Yeah, there really hasn't been too much bad lately, so I'm pretty pleased with life now.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: The Strokes - Reptilia

The Good

- I went home on Wednesday for Thanksgiving. That was a very refreshing time, although I was not at home for that long. I got to catch up with many people I haven't seen in a while, which was really nice. Thanksgiving on Thursday was a blast, surprisingly. I had a lot of fun. Playing Cranium was a really good time. I didn't think a board game with the family would be a good time at all, haha. But it ended up being fun. There's nothing that says family gathering like video games, so obviously the N64 comes out and my cousin Jeff, my cousin Brad, his friend Dan, and I played Bomberman 64. Needless to say, I went 5-0 in matches. They had enough of that, so Jeff and I got to crush Brad and Dan in some Wayne Gretsky's 3D Hockey, arguably the greatest video game of all time. We won the best of five series 3-1 (in match 3, we came back from a 10-5 deficit at the end of the 2nd period to win 11-10, pretty absurd to get shut out in a period if you know that game). That was a blast, haha.

The Bad

- I really need to be studying for the upcoming quizzes in random classes, as well as getting prepared for the finals. I can't let myself slack anymore, as that's all I've been doing while I've been at college, haha. My grades are fine, but it seems like I could do so much better. And it's really not that hard to just put the effort in, but there's so many distractions and whatnot that I can't seem to focus as well as I would like to.

- Magic related: I got 9th place at a PTQ last weekend. Lame.

- The pastor at the church I used to go to (and the elementary school I used to go to for nine years) passed away about two weeks ago. It's really sad for many reasons. I've known him all throughout my life ever since I was in kindergarden. He is a pretty tall guy, about six feet tall I would say. He ended up passing away at the age of about 55 or so at about 110 pounds or something ridiculous like that. It really makes me think about life and how I should be enjoying it to its fullest. Life really comes at you quickly, and this example shows that.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Minibosses - Mike Tyson's Punch Out

www.vikingr.ca/life-style/man-proposes-by-hacking-chrono-trigger-rom/

My brother Chris showed this to me. This is the craziest thing ever. So brilliant and unique.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Pardon the Interruption

The Good

- I started to play basketball a lot with some of my friends that go here (Westfall, Six, Glaeser, others). There will only be like 3 people that will recognize those names, but whatever, haha. Anyway, basketball is becoming my favorite sport, for sure. It's so easy to just pick up a game and play, and it's a lot more fun than the other sports that I played. Soccer is alright, but it's just way too hard to just get a real game going. Plus I'm pretty good at it, too. So that's a plus. Basketball is much more fun than soccer, anyway. It's not just mindless running and whatnot.

- This weekend was pretty good, surprisingly. And by weekend, I mean Saturday. I played the Cavs drinking game with Westfall + company, and that game is awesome, haha. We played other drinking games, like Sink the Bismarck at halftime and beer pong after the game was over. We also played Rock Band. It was a pretty solid time. Then I went bowling with Pirin, Megan, Brian, and San (Megan's boyfriend), and that was a blast, haha. Drunk bowling is sooo much easier than normal bowling, I don't understand it. Also, strawberry banana chocolate smoothies are the greatest things ever. Then I went to Megan's to drink more, I guess, and that was also fun, haha. Basically an awesome day as a whole.

The Bad

- I've had a lot of school work that I've had to catch up on lately because I procrastinate a lot (like what I'm doing right now by making this entry). I mean, I'm doing it, so that's a plus, haha. But it's still annoying that the past three days have been a lot of work. Hopefully I did well on my Math midterm today so it actually shows.

- I am in the study room right now with like five other people, and they are so loud. I like trying to study and not being able to. I mean, that happens quite often, but it's actually impossible to study here, haha.

- Not even going to get into relationship crap; all you need to know is that it's under this category. =P

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: We the Kings - Secret Valentine

The Good

- I went home this weekend. I wasn't really at home at any point, but I was back in Parma. It was nice to see my parents and my dog (even if he is stupid). We had steak for dinner on Friday, and that was a really good time to just relax and eat dinner with them. I feel bad for my parents since I really wasn't home at all besides on Friday, but I'll see them on Thanksgiving, so that will be a better time.

- I hung out with a lot of the people that I used to hang out with all the time before I went to college. I didn't get to see everyone, but I saw a good amount. That was a very refreshing time. I just basically BS'ed with my high school friends for hours at one of their houses. It was a pretty awesome time. That's when I thought to myself that I would like to be back home and do that all the time, but I was then reminded that Parma is terrible, and there's nothing to do there, haha. OSU is definitely a better place for me.

- Speaking of, since I really haven't updated this at all, Ohio State has been a positive experience so far, thank God. To just have all this independence and time and whatnot is just amazing. It's not stressful in the least, and I've just been enjoying life down here. Sometimes I have just too much time on my hands, but I'd rather have that than not enough time to do anything, which is what I originally thought it was going to be, so that is a good thing.

- I went to see The Academy Is. . . at their concert today. It was a pretty good time. They were excellent, although they weren't as good as the first performance of theirs that I went to. Probably due to the fact that when I first saw them, they only played stuff from their first CD since it was their only CD at the time, and that CD is one of my all-time favorite CDs. Hence why I thought The Phrase That Pays was definitely the best song of the night by them. But they were still pretty good, and William Beckett's (the lead singer) voice was just astounding.

- I've been listening to some old music lately. Some examples are the old The Academy Is. . . CD, the old Cute Is What We Aim For CD, the Reanimation CD by Linkin Park, the Linkin Park/Jay-Z CD, and the old Taking Back Sunday songs that I used to listen to all the time. It's been pretty amazing listening to this music, not gonna lie. Mainly because there's really no new music that I'm aware of that I would want to listen to, haha. Speaking of, does anybody have any music suggestions? I will happily accept your suggestions, as I haven't listened to anything new in a while.

The Bad

- I have had a really bad earache in my left ear for most of today, and it is really bugging me. I took some Tylenol like an hour or so ago and it's been feeling a little better, but it's still pretty annoying. It really affected the concert today, too, since I was feeling all this pain when the music wasn't playing. It was fine when it was playing, though, because I didn't have to focus on it.

- I hate feeling really out of place (kinda like a third wheel) when I go places. It's probably my least favorite experience in the world, and I hate it. It's happened a number of times within the past week, and I can't stand it. Hopefully that will change, haha. It would be nice.

- I really need a girlfriend or something, haha. Not saying that I'm desperate to just find anybody, but like, it would relieve some stress that I've been having. It's not exactly a top priority; just saying that it would be nice to have someone close to me that I could talk to and relate to and whatnot.

- I REALLY wish I had a car down here at OSU. You don't understand how annoying it is to not be able to drive a car wherever the hell you want. The freedom that I experience down here + the ability to just drive anywhere like I was able to at home would be an amazing luxury. Guess I'll just have to wait until next year for that, heh.

Current Music: Taking Back Sunday - MakeDamnSure

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: mega man 9 music

i was playing mega man 2 for anniversary collection, and my roommate walked in and asked what i was playing

i can't figure out if that question pisses me off or not 

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Rihanna - Disturbia

disclaimer: my secrets are always so vague, but i like them to be that way so you just don't know exactly which one you are. and sorry if i forgot you. and i don't know who reads my lj anymore.

secrets:

1.)  i'm kinda sad i don't talk to you too much anymore. you're a really funny person and someone i can relate to easily.

2.) i'm glad we started talking again, even though i moved down to columbus, lol. we've had so much history that i'm glad we remained friends. i like the way you think.

3.) you are one of the best people i've ever met in my life, and i would love to see you again soon. you are one of the most unique people i know.

4.) you have been getting on my nerves lately. a lot. please stop.

5.) i wish it weren't so hard to be myself around you. you're the only person i am not myself around, and it really frustrates me.

6.) i like listening to you talk and your reasoning behind things. you have a great sense of humor.

7.) you are such an awesome person to be around. i like you a lot, and i would like to hang out with you more in the future.

8.) you're a great person with good intentions. thank you for being there for me all the time.

9.) i don't know what to think of you or your life. from my point of view, it seems like it can only go downhill, so i wish you the best of luck.

10.) i wish i got to know you better. you seem so down to earth, and you have a similar sense of humor as i do. 

so yeah, only 10 cause i could only think of 10 people that read this. =P

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